The month of December holds lots of "excitement" for our clan. Jesus, Joe and myself all share this birthday month. Logan will be with us for Christmas so we'll be traveling to and from Louisiana...twice. I have a home to clean, decorate and prepare for the festivities. I have a lot of baking, very little shopping and some planning to do. We are having a scavenger hunt for Logan on Christmas morning. Eleven year old boys are notoriously hard to please and his gift requests have been a little far fetched for our budget so...I plan to give him very small gifts with money tucked in. I hope to start a new Christmas tradition with the scavenger hunt. We'll see how it goes.
I'm trying to feel boisterous and lively and jovial. Woohoo. But right now, I wish my fairy godmother would whisk me away from it all. I wish she would replace plain old regular me with Super-Duper Christmas Kim. Whoosh! Then plain old regular me could have a nice rest while everyone else enjoys the stew out of Christmas. I'll get it before the big event goes down, I'm sure.
My biggest fear and source of stress is that it won't measure up. That it won't be as great and magical as it should be. It's not the sort of thing one can control. The magic is either there or it isn't.
I've failed before.
I call this one "Christmas Chaos 2006".
Oh and this one is called "Disappointment Personified".
I call this one "Can't You Be Still?" but Joe calls it "You Owe Me. Is It Sunday?"
My point is that I try really hard but I think I've tried the wrong things in the past. This year will be different. I just know it!
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I know what you mean! Today was my daughter's 5th birthday and we took the money she got from bday cards and went to Toys R Us "for the first time in her life!" she reminded me the hour drive there. We got the Tinkerbell Play Set drove home and whined for an hour--"how much loooooooonger???". Then she broke down all the way because the toy is basically flawed and Tinkerbell doesn't look like the real Tinkerbell and waaaaaahhhh! So she's sleeping now and we've postponed the party.
Sigh. But, you are right. We can be positive about trying again and doing it right...maybe.
Love your blog!
Wow, that's a lot of pressure to feel!
I'm spending Christmas morning working and then going round to my friend Sonia's for an afternoon/ evening of a little light drinking. I'm quite looking forward to it, actually. We're both single, our families are a long way away, so why not join forces and see if two miseries will create a positive explosion when they meet?
Stranger things have happened.
I feel you. I find myself at this moment longing for your christmas to be especially peaceful and beautiful. Yours especially.
That's waht they all say...just before they fall apart.
Candi,
Thank you and you're welcome any old time!
Fred,
That sounds really nice. I hope you guys have a great time. Knock one back for me and for goodness sakes, try to keep it in the road!
Christy,
That's so sweet of you. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers.
C.S.
I can't wait for you to experience your first Christmas with Silas. then if you find yourself sobbing and unable to stop, we'll compare notes and maybe have a stiff drink ourselves.
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