Forever, Forever, You'll Stay In My Heart

 

 

 

Left Behind

Joe went off carousing with his friend, Allen, in C-town on Thursday night. Sam went to spend the night with his grandparents and Zoe was not invited. It was his special night.

We found ourselves left behind. Just us two girls. So, we took our pants off. We roller-skated in our panties. Then we ate junk food. While eating, we decided to go have a walk. We were full of chicken nuggets and we had ketchup smeared across our faces. We didn't even wash our hands. We just went. Oh! We did put our pants back on. It was already almost 9 when we set out. We walked the sun down.

My children love gravel more than any kids I've ever seen. I loved rocks but these kids have an affinity for gravel I cannot understand. Zoe says gravel is made of diamonds and black pepper. That's what she says.

We talked to neighbors. We waved to the guy on the lawnmower. We walked down the path at my cousin's to see the horses.
As it darkened, Zoe looked up and pointed at the clouds. The photo does them no justice. It was a beautiful display. Zoe said it was a spaceship. She told me she was afraid. So I broke into song. You're thinking Neil Young, aren't you? After The Goldrush, right? Uh huh...uh huh...

I wasn't surprised by her fear. When I was small, I believed these sorts of formations were the eye of God looking directly down at me. I felt small and pitiful. It frightened me. Zoe hasn't been introduced to that god. I think she intuitively wonders at the powers of nature- the everyday spectacles before her. And that leaves me to wonder.

Well, I dreamed I saw the silver spaceships 

flying in the yellow haze of the sun,

There were children crying

and colors flying

all around the chosen ones.

                                                                                                                                            

-After The Goldrush